Is Your Heart Speaking To You?

As I sat quietly this morning feeling yet another episode of my heart pounding in my chest, I wondered how many others have been experiencing new sensations of the heart lately. Breathing into my heart and allowing the pounding to subside, I was reminded of several people I had encountered in the past week that disclosed experiencing episodes of rapid

fluttering heartbeat or “minor twinges” in the left chest over the past year. This too is something I have been experiencing as well as the episodes like this morning where my heartbeat becomes more noticeable for a period of time. It pounds loudly, its regular rhythm echoing in my ears instead of beating quietly unnoticed as it usually does. These episodes arise out of the blue unrelated to any kind of physical or emotional stress. Other heart related episodes have been less physical. Many friends have commented on sudden episodes of crying related to different heartfelt emotions such as grief, sadness, and shame. Curiously, I asked Spirit what all this could mean and was reminded that our body speaks to us. It draws our attention to matters that we must address. In this case, “matters of the heart.” “But what kind of matters?” I wondered. As it turns out, when I dug deeper and deeper there were many messages coming from the heart. How about you? Has your heart been speaking to you lately? What messages have you deciphered? Let’s explore a few potentials…

Getting The Message

Physical Needs First: As a retired Registered Nurse, I want to first say that when your body calls out to you, it may very well be that it simply needs you to pay attention to its physical needs. If your heart, or any other part of your body for that matter, calls out with pain, an abnormal rhythm, or another concerning symptoms, you may want to seek medical advice to address those physical needs. We do live in a physical world, and our physical body, especially the heart, is providing a “home” for our spirit to experience all we have come to learn on this physical plane. So, we want to keep this “home” in good repair to support us for our journey on this planet. Caring for the body with medication, a change in diet or activity, or some other treatment, can help us appreciate the body and help it to continue to provide that shelter for spirit as long as needed. Medical care can also provide that necessary bridge to more time to focus on the other messages the heart is giving us without the distraction of worrisome symptoms derailing our pursuit of deeper meaning.

Going Deeper: Once physical needs are met, it is time to take another listen to what the heart is trying to tell us. If we don’t, the message will just circle back even louder. I have learned this firsthand. I suffered a few bouts of atrial fibrillation and resultant high blood pressure several years ago. The actual diagnosis was made on the third trip to the emergency room by ambulance when the abnormal heartbeat was finally caught on an ECG (electrocardiogram).

Relieved to have a diagnosis, I started medication and returned to my high stress job thinking everything was under control. Believing my workload was the source of my health problems, the message seemed to be to create better balance in my life, to have some regular “down time” for myself. So, I tried strategies to relax and not “take my work home with me” but I failed miserably. Luckily, retirement was not too far off so I set my sights on that time to be when I could “finally relax.” That worked well to the point of being able to reduce medication until recently. My heart is speaking up again, only this time, being further along on my spiritual journey, I understand that I need to dig deeper for some answers.

As I began to address the “matters of the heart” these last few weeks several things have come up. Sitting quietly and connecting with my heart using a heart-brain coherence meditation, I heard a repeated message about slowing down and focusing on myself. I had to grimace because my body gave me the same message earlier in the year with a broken wrist! I thought I had slowed down then but obviously not enough! Then my Guides simply explained that with heart symptoms they knew that I would pay attention to my needs better. When the heart speaks my higher self knew I would listen. Why? Perhaps because of that little echo of fear of going back into emergency. In fact, one night I had a dream of exactly that. So now I am taking more time to physically rest and to focus on making changes for better physical health AND especially to follow through on those changes.

Spirit also reminded me to check when I had symptoms to determine if they were even mine or whether I was energetically picking up on someone else. As I became more consistent with that, I found that my usual strategy of sending love to what wasn’t mine was not as effective as it had been. I realized that I was feeling the heavy stressful energy of the collective consciousness and that it was not my role to help heal all of it. I made some changes by avoiding the negative energy perpetuated by television and social media. I began to do daily clearing of my energetic field. Those strategies helped. Sometimes, as they say, “an ounce of prevention is worth a pound of cure.” Do any of these experiences sound similar to what you are experiencing? Have you given yourself time to listen to your heart? Has your body given you repeated messages that you need to pay attention to? Are you dealing with energy that isn’t yours?

Going Even Deeper: Although I was making changes, my heart continued to speak up, getting louder and more insistent. Thankfully, I was past any fear of these symptoms so I could look for the deeper messages. How did I get past the fear? I was doing what I needed to do to support my heart physically but most importantly, I have a deep “knowing” that my heart is healthy. That is a non-negotiable truth I feel in my bones. I discovered the way forward when Spirit guided me to seek more answers through the techniques I had learned in my recent studies of medical intuition.

So, through intuitive sessions with fellow students as well as on my own, many unresolved

“matters of the heart” came up for me to address. The first message that came through was that I was “broken hearted” due to unexpressed grief regarding my father’s death. Looking back, I suddenly realized that I had not given myself a chance to grieve at the time. I had to make funeral arrangements and look after my grieving mother as well as my young family. So, I buried my feelings and now 35 years later that grief needed to be expressed and released. As I was mulling this over when clearing out some old paperwork, I came across a photo of my dad. There were no other photos of any kind in the drawer. Looking at my dad smiling back at me, the tears finally started to flow. The dam was broken. After the waterworks stopped, my chest, my heart felt lighter. Feeling him around me, I silently thanked my dad. Do you have any unresolved grief weighing heavy on your heart?

That same afternoon I started to experience more symptoms. As I looked at my heart energetically, I saw huge connections to family members that had to be severed. I was reminded of a previous session with another medical intuitive classmate where we saw family literally “pulling on my heartstrings.” This was a reminder that I was not finished my work on setting healthy boundaries. It took me a few rounds of releasing those connections as I reminded myself that better boundaries would not only be healthier for me but also for them. After the third session of working with Archangel Michael to release those connections, the symptoms I was experiencing stopped and have not returned. Do you have anyone “pulling on your heartstrings” that might need to be released?

Some of the deepest work that I did was the next day. It took me to a past life trauma that has been magnified in this life and needed to be addressed. Some of those past life scenarios had come to me before in snippets but this time I knew what to do with them. With the help of Spirit, I was able to see the trauma from an observer perspective and ask what meaning it held for me. After several layers of questions, what I have carried through several lifetimes was revealed as a life lesson in self love and self worth. The message was to “open my heart to myself.”

Open Your Heart

I know that many of us have heard or used the terms “be heart centred” or “open your heart” many times. However, I began to wonder if we really know how to practice this? Is it something you truly feel and embody or is it, Spirit is asking, a “cognitive exercise” where you

think you are in your heart but are blocked or not feeling with your heart? I had to really ponder this question. I know I spend time daily connecting with my heart in meditation and opening it. I try to be heart centred by seeing others with love, compassion, and without judgement. I am always open to sending heartfelt love and healing to others when needed or guided to do so. I knew I was not yet in that space 100% of the time but was doing my best. My heart though, has now taken me to a deeper level of being in the heart, of feeling more. I am learning how to really open my heart to myself. What about you? Do you feel you are living from the heart? Is your heart open to you?

As I contemplated Spirit’s message, I realized that I was giving from the heart, but I have been blocked in receiving love in my heart. My trauma rooted lack of self love and self worth had put up a barrier. The clearest example was with my family. I knew that they loved me. They showed me that daily. I knew that without a doubt, but I suddenly realized I had not allowed myself to FEEL their love. Now, with that trauma cleared, when I focus on my heart and think of any of my family the feeling of their unconditional love is so overwhelming it brings me to tears. It is as powerful as when I feel my angels nearby. AND I am so grateful to my heart for leading me on this journey toward self love.

No More…

The next step is to REALLY FEEL love for myself. Spirit has reminded me today through several synchronicities that if we can’t open our hearts to ourselves then it is difficult to love others wholly and unconditionally. As I sat contemplating this, Spirit gave me some examples of changes to make as we move into self love and self worth. Part of the journey is no more protecting ourselves by blocking off our heart. We need to release past traumas and karma and know we are safe. Here is the list of some changes to make:

• Self Love: Discover the root of your feelings of lack of self love and heal it. Discover, understand, and release the trauma. Find gratitude in the lessons it has brought you. Allow yourself to feel love in your heart. Believe that you are a beautiful Child of the Divine and are immensely loved. You come from love. You are love. Then you can release the following triggers/behaviours:

  • No more self-criticism for what you ate for breakfast. Honour all your choices in the moment.

  • No more frustration for things you can’t figure out. Focus on what you do understand and trust that further knowledge and understanding will come in the perfect timing for you. Believe in yourself.

  • No more self-denial because you think you don’t deserve something. Allow yourself to have, do, and feel what brings you joy. Your Divine right is happiness.

  • No more shame because you aren’t living up to someone else’s expectations that you have adopted as your own. Be honest with yourself and live according to your authentic truth. The only person’s expectations you should meet are your own.

  • No more put downs or bad jokes aimed at yourself or minimizing praise because you can’t see the good in yourself. Treat yourself with the love and respect that you would give to your loved ones.

  • No more deflection of love or just acknowledging in your head with a locked off heart because deep down you think of yourself as unlovable. Open your heart and allow yourself to receive love.

  • No more pushing people away because you feel you won’t meet their expectations and don’t want to disappoint them, or because you fear that you won’t “measure up.” Be true to yourself. You are loveable just the way you are.

  • No more false friendships because you want to be accepted. When you love yourself, you find people who love you for who you are.

    
    

• Self-worth: Discover the root of your feelings of lack of worth and heal it. Believe that you are beautiful and worthy just as you are. Then you can release the following triggers/behaviours:

  • No more over giving or working endlessly for approval beyond the point of exhaustion just to feel worthy. You are enough just as you are.

  • No more refusal of offers of help because you think you should be able to do it or that you are not worthy of help. Allow others to give you the gift of their help and allow yourself to receive that gift. You are worth it!

  • No more doormat moments because you feel you don’t deserve any better. Find your worth and your voice.

  • No more keeping yourself small because you believe you have nothing of value to offer. The world needs you on whatever scale feels right for you.

  • No more burying feelings of disappointment because you feel ashamed of them. You have a right to your feelings, and you are deserving of receiving what you wish to receive. If you are disappointed, speak your truth to gain a full understanding of the situation rather than assuming you are not worthy of receiving.

  • No more stifling your creativity because you compare your creations to others’ and think your work is not good enough. Whose standards are you using? Only your opinion matters. Did your creativity bring you joy?

    
    

I am sure you may have others to add to the list and some of the above may not apply to you. Spirit points out that a lot of the “no mores” are lifelong habits that may take a while to change. We are reminded to be patient with ourselves and keep loving ourselves through the journey. On the other hand, many changes will be easy because we have released the root of the lack of self love and self worth.

I’m Listening…

I know my story may sound a little crazy or hard to believe but it has been an eventful eye-

opening (and heart opening) couple of weeks for me. I know my journey continues and I look forward to less dramatic messages from the heart. It already feels quieter today, but I am sure I will be given some reminders if I fall off path. I am so grateful to my heart and to those who have helped me decipher some of the heart’s messages. Spirit prompted me to share my story with you as it feels that many are going through “an awakening of the heart.” My heartfelt wish is that some of this is helpful for you on your journey. As my journey continues, I am going to keep listening to my heart. Are you?

Sending you love and light,

Marilyn

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